inspire-indiana Chapter 67 Let's go
Chapter 67 Let's go
"do not forget me."
Zhong Xun turned his head and wiped his eyes vigorously, his heart ached with hatred, why he couldn't control himself and cried again, trying to chase someone, it took a long time at first, but now he wants to break up, and he wants to mess up again.
"Do you like me?" Chu Tingdong moved his hand away and asked him in a low voice, "When did it start?"
Of course he didn't feel that Zhong Xun had no feelings for him, but his chest was slightly tight. In the past six months, scenes flashed before his eyes, and he really... couldn't tell the truth from the fake.
Did you like him when you approached him to provoke him?Later, I used him to take revenge on Zhong Zhonglin, do I still like him a little bit?
"Uh..." Zhong Xun's throat was blocked, and when he spoke again, his voice was already hoarse. A little smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, this time he was really honest, and said: "In the hospital, when you carried me home, I I don't want to kiss you at all, it's disgusting, I just want to fight against Zhong Zhonglin, why do I have to sacrifice so much?"
"But I'm afraid you will doubt it, of course the acting must be realistic, so you kissed me, and I didn't refuse."
"I don't want to sleep with you, it's also disgusting, but if you fucked me, Zhong Zhonglin will definitely feel more embarrassed. He values you, so I want you to mix with me."
Chu Tingdong stared at him, still silent.
"I want you to go to Zhong Zhonglin and tell him that you like me," Zhong Xun raised his eyelashes, smiled mockingly, and continued, "But if you don't want to go, I just want him to catch you sleeping with me." .”
"Brother, do you know, I have thought about it many times, when you pinch my chin and kiss me, or touch me on the bed, it would be great if Zhong Zhonglin could catch me, even if he scolds me that I want to eat swan meat It doesn't matter, no matter how dirty or disgusting I am, no matter how trash I am, you still like me, and you were fooled by me. When I thought of the expression on Zhong Zhonglin's face, I thought that he might really be pissed off, no matter how fucked he was No regrets!"
"I don't care if you feel embarrassed... Don't you know that they are getting married? Did I force you to like me? Although I lied to you, you deserve it."
Zhong Xun's voice became hoarse and his ears were buzzing, but he continued to speak.
"I can't take it anymore, I know you treat me well," his eyes started to turn red again, and he tried to hold back his tears, "You said you would take me out of Ningcheng together, there are so many things I haven't seen before, are you You idiot, you are tempting me by saying anything casually, even if I don't love you, I still want to go with you."
"But it's really not worth it. I hate Zhong Zhonglin, but I don't hate you. I won't be happy if I ruin you."
There were tears in his eyes, his voice was choked up uncontrollably, and even he himself began to be confused about what he was telling was the truth and what was lying and deceiving.
Zhong Xun couldn't make a sound anymore, he didn't dare to meet Chu Tingdong's eyes, and he didn't dare to listen to his answer, his legs were weak, he staggered a step to the side, turned his head and ran away.
He ran all the way home, his hands shaking badly.
After taking the key to open the door, Zhong Zhonglin and Wu Yulan were both in the living room, and they were shocked when he pushed the door hard.
Zhong Zhonglin's heart felt uncomfortable, and he said angrily, "What are you trying to do at night?!"
Zhong Xun's cheeks were so pale that there was no blood, and the chilly night wind blew in the corridor behind him. When he raised his head, his eyelashes trembled slightly, and tears rolled down his white and thin chin.
Without waiting for Zhong Zhonglin to speak again, Zhong Xun said again in a hoarse voice what he had just said to Chu Tingdong.
"I broke up with him, and I won't bother him anymore." Zhong Xun's eyes were wet and red, and his lips were also reddened by himself. Against the pale face, it was almost weird, "Are you satisfied?" ?”
Zhong Zhonglin didn't react at all at first, but when he understood a little bit, his face was dark, he was astonished and embarrassed.
How could anyone do such a thing? !
Wu Yulan's lips were trembling, she thought it was ridiculous and disgusting enough for two boys to be together.
She never expected that Chu Tingdong would still be deceived. She was so ashamed that she felt dizzy.
Zhong Xun's tears were still dripping down uncontrollably, but he was numb and dazed, as if he had no emotion, and stood there pale and cold.
Zhong Zhonglin breathed heavily, and was so angry that he couldn't stand still, and fell down on the sofa behind him.
"Beast...beast!" Wu Yulan's body was cold, tears blurred, she raised her hand and slapped Zhong Xun across the face, and when she wanted to slap again, Chu Tingdong grabbed her wrist.
Chu Tingdong stretched out his hand and pulled Zhong Xun behind him, Zhong Xun's tears became more turbulent, streaming down his face with burning pain.
"What on earth do you want?" Wu Yulan couldn't bear it anymore, she raised her head angrily and disappointed, her voice was sharp, "Look at your inhuman appearance, how dare you admit to me that you just fell in love with me?" Your brother, what about now? Are you ashamed? Stupid thing, do you know how others laugh at you behind your back? You don’t even know you’ve been fooled? People are going to break up with you, and you still protect him? Promise?!"
Chu Tingdong tightly clenched Zhong Xun's wrist, and his Adam's apple rolled violently. He had been in pain, but this was the first time he felt it so deeply and clearly.
He didn't expect any understanding from her, but he couldn't even get a little pity from his own mother.
"Mom, you said you wouldn't force me, why did you have to beat him?" Chu Tingdong stood in front of Zhong Xun, his voice low and hoarse, "Don't you know? I don't want to see you guys do anything to him, I feel very uncomfortable. "
"If you think I'm worthless, then I really can't be as promising as you hope."
Wu Yulan's chest kept rising and falling, she was so disappointed that she couldn't help venting her anger at him, and said sharply, "Whether you want to be cured or not, buy a ticket now and get out!"
Chu Tingdong pursed his lips, and stroked Zhong Xun's wrist with his fingertips, without any unnecessary reaction.
Zhong Xun broke away from his palm suddenly, he raised his hand, wiped his wet cheeks, and walked towards Chu Tingdong's bedroom without a word, and came out with a bunch of things within a few minutes.
He threw the little gorilla hard on Chu Tingdong, and other dolls that Chu Tingdong had caught for him, and picked up a transparent box with trembling fingertips.
It was a rose, taxidermied, still gorgeous and lifelike.
"Aren't you an idiot?" Zhong Xun's eye circles were no longer as red as before, but his cheeks became paler, making his brows beautiful and cool, and he sneered in a low voice, "I'll just give you a flower that no one wants. I can't bear to throw it away."
Halfway through his speech, he lowered his head and removed the specimen, and the dried petals fell to the ground.
Chu Tingdong stared at him with lowered eyes.
Zhong Xun didn't dare to look up again, his breath was filled with the smell of blood and rust, he even dismantled the SLR lens that Chu Tingdong gave him, and threw it into the trash can, the polished lens was splashed with dirty water and stains.
On the contrary, Wu Yulan collapsed first, and Zhong Xun's doing so was tantamount to humiliating her.
She felt that Zhong Xun was deliberately trying to make it difficult for them.
With tears all over her face and hysteria, she dragged Zhong Zhonglin to let him drive, and ignored Chu Tingdong who didn't clean up anything, and stood there with a pale face, trying to force him to leave.
Chu Tingdong was holding the little orangutan in his hand, his lips were white, Zhong Xun slightly raised his eyelashes to look at him, his throat suddenly twitched, and the movements of his hands gradually stopped.
He knew that it was useless for him to just expose Chu Tingdong, even if Chu Tingdong really broke up with him and hated him, he would not be able to completely leave him alone, maybe he would wait until after the college entrance examination before leaving.
It simply collapsed completely, making Chu Tingdong no longer able to stay in this place.
But he was obviously the one who wanted Chu Tingdong to leave the most, but he was also the first one who was reluctant to force him.
When Wu Yulan calmed down a bit, Chu Tingdong lowered his eyes, silently bypassed her, and went to the bedroom.
He sat on the edge of the bed holding the little gorilla, his finger bones were cold and white and slender, the little gorilla that was lined with black was a circle smaller in his hand, his elbows rested on his knees, his brows were tightly frowned.
After about a minute, Chu Tingdong felt someone touch the back of his hand.
His face was cold and pale, like a sculpture that was lifeless and bloodless. When he raised his eyes, he saw Zhong Xun squatting in front of him.
"Let's go, what are you worried about?" Zhong Xun said, his eye circles turned red again, and tears hung tremblingly on his lower eyelashes. He bent down at Chu Tingdong, picked up the I showed him the same test paper, but my voice was so hoarse that I could hardly utter a sound, so I could only say in a low voice, "I can do well in the test now..."
After he finished speaking, he raised his head nervously and cautiously, wanting to see Chu Tingdong's expression.
But seeing Chu Tingdong lowered his eyes, staring at his cheek all the time, Chu Tingdong's eyes were very dark, his eyes suddenly turned red, and tears fell down suddenly.
Zhong Xun was taken aback, his vision became more blurred.
It was only then that he realized that he was wrong. It wasn't that Zhong Zhonglin thought Chu Tingdong was so good, but he thought that Chu Tingdong was the most powerful in his heart.
So I don't see others embarrassing him, I don't see him getting sick or injured, and I don't dare to think that he will cry. If he thinks about it for a while, he will be unbearable.
Chu Tingdong's tears flowed quietly, without making a sound, and even his eye sockets were only a little red. When Zhong Xun looked up again, he couldn't see that he had cried.
……
Zhong Xun didn't know how he went back to the bedroom to sleep. He was in a daze. He developed a high fever at night, his lips were chapped and dry, as if he was hugged and fed some water, and fell asleep again.
But when he woke up, he was alone in the house.
His legs were weak, and he looked at Chu Tingdong's bedroom in panic. Chu Tingdong's things were still there, as if he had left, he breathed a sigh of relief, only to realize that his throat hurt badly.
He lay at home in a daze all day.
When I went to school on Monday, I passed Xu Chunhong's office and heard him talking to Chu Tingdong.
"I heard from your parents about the operation." Xu Chunhong frowned, and couldn't help sighing, "It's just before the college entrance examination...but after all, it's the body that matters."
Chu Tingdong didn't say much, but responded in a low voice.
Zhong Xun arrived at the classroom first, and when he saw Chu Tingdong coming from the other end of the corridor, he lay down and pretended to be asleep. He didn't dare to look up all morning, only hearing the sound of Chu Tingdong's pen rubbing against the paper.
He thought that Chu Tingdong was going to leave, he didn't dare to come to school, couldn't help it, and didn't dare to move around in his seat when he came, but one day, two days...he still saw Chu Tingdong in the classroom.
"Uh..." He wanted to ask Chu Tingdong what was going on in his heart, but the fever seemed to burn his throat, and his lips moved, only blurred fragments came out.
"You don't have to hide from me anymore," Chu Tingdong spoke first, as if he saw through his hesitation, and said coldly, "I won't come to school from next week."
Zhong Xun's eyelids were still red and swollen, and he stared blankly at him, as if he didn't understand, Chu Tingdong didn't explain further.
Zhong found the school next week, and the seat next to him was always empty, from early morning to evening, and late at night when the third year of senior high school finished self-study, just like when Chu Tingdong hadn't transferred to another school half a year ago.
Chu Tingdong didn't come to class again, but he didn't leave either. He left early and returned late, and returned to the dormitory from the back playground late at night.
Zhong Xun didn't know what he was busy with, so he couldn't help being anxious. He remembered hearing from Chu Tingdong's coach that if he wanted to go to the clinic, he had to leave this month, otherwise he might not have the chance.
Seeing the stalemate, Zhong Xun finally blocked Chu Tingdong outside the school gate.
"What's the matter?" Chu Tingdong asked him.
I haven't seen him for a few days, but Chu Tingdong has lost a lot of weight, his eye sockets are getting deeper, his lips are a little white, he was originally slender, but now at first glance, he is so thin.
"I want to ask which day you bought the ticket for." Zhong Xun's voice was still weak, and he asked him in a weak and hoarse voice.
He thought that Chu Tingdong would give him an ambiguous answer again, or simply ignore it, but he didn't expect Chu Tingdong to be silent for a moment, and then said to him, "The day after tomorrow."
Zhong Xun's cheeks were pale, with a morbid redness, and he repeated, "The day after tomorrow."
Chu Tingdong didn't say anything more to him, and walked towards the dormitory building, and Zhong Xun followed behind him.
But he didn't go to Chu Tingdong's dormitory, as if he just dropped by, and turned his head to go to his own side.
He lowered his head and pushed open the door. Wang Pang and the others were still playing games. Zhong Xun quietly climbed to his bed on the upper bunk to sleep, covered his head with a quilt, and fell asleep without thinking about anything.
Chu Tingdong suddenly transferred to another school, and left in a hurry. He didn't have a deep friendship with his classmates, and even if he left now, it would at most attract a few sighs.
Only Zhou Heng and the others couldn't help feeling a little bit reluctant, Xu Chunhong told the news, and when the get out of class was over, they came to say goodbye to Chu Tingdong.
Zhong Xun lay beside him all the time, pulling up his school uniform and covering his head to sleep, Zhou Heng and the others did not dare to speak too loudly, Zhong Xun was so bored that his ears turned red, and his messy curly hair stuck to his cheeks.
But when Zhou Heng and the others left, he couldn't say goodbye to Chu Tingdong.
Chu Tingdong went through the check-out procedures, and then went to clean up the dormitory at night. He didn't bring much to Ningcheng, and left many review materials for Zhong Xun.
The suitcase was empty, and the Kosten he had given Zhong Xun to wear before was folded and placed at the bottom.
There were only three months left before the college entrance examination, and Chu Tingdong did not transfer to another school. Considering his current situation, Xu Chunhong asked him to take a long-term sick leave with the school.
"The teacher knows that you know it well," Xu Chunhong smiled, sighed, and told him, "I won't tell you more. Although there is no feast that lasts forever, whether it is treatment or the upcoming college entrance examination, the teacher I wish you all the best, and don't forget Ning Cheng."
"Thank you, Teacher Xu."
Although Xu Chunhong had only been his homeroom teacher for half a year, it was hard for Chu Tingdong not to respect him from the bottom of his heart.
When Chu Tingdong arrived at home, he stayed for another night and started packing his luggage when he woke up.
Chu Tingdong was packing his luggage in the bedroom, and Wu Yulan stood aside, trying to help him, but couldn't get in. Chu Tingdong has been on the figure skating team all these years.
From the initial training, he did everything by himself, and he was not used to being taken care of by anyone.
"Mom won't accompany you to go abroad for the time being." At this point, Wu Yulan didn't know how to face her son, and she felt resentful when he got close to her. Even if Chu Tingdong didn't resent her, she still had complicated emotions, but she still Can't help telling Chu Tingdong, "Call home if you need anything."
"Okay." Chu Tingdong nodded.
Zhong Xun was at home last night, his bedroom was dark and the lights were not turned on, Zhong Zhonglin and the others didn't know he was there.
He didn't change his clothes, he fell on the bed exhausted, hugging the little orangutan who was thrown away by him and picked up by Chu Tingdong again, his messy curly hair hung down to cover his eyelashes, and he kept his eyes open until the early morning.
He fell asleep for a while in a daze, and heard that Chu Tingdong seemed to get up and pack his luggage.
He moved his eyelashes again and opened his eyes.
Zhong Xun stood up and went to the door of Chu Tingdong's bedroom. His eyelashes drooped thickly, and he stood leaning against the doorframe of Chu Tingdong's bedroom.
Even though Wu Yulan looked at him with disgust, even hatred, he didn't leave.
"Mom, let me have a few words with him alone." Chu Tingdong raised his head and said to Wu Yulan.
"What else can I say?" Wu Yulan frowned, but seeing that Chu Tingdong was willing to leave, she didn't want to argue with her son again at this juncture, so she turned around reluctantly and left.
Zhong Xun walked in and brought it to the door.
"What's the matter?" Chu Tingdong asked him calmly.
"You're leaving tomorrow," Zhong Xun sat by his bed, tapped his heels lightly on the floor, and asked him, "Shall I see you off?"
"No need." Chu Tingdong refused.
Zhong Xun already expected that he would not agree, so he didn't force him any more. Seeing Chu Tingdong folding clothes, he lowered his head and picked up one to help him.
In the end, after a few clicks, they were stacked in a mess and scattered into a pile, and he put them back embarrassingly.
Chu Tingdong raised his eyes to look at him, there was no emotion in his eyes, but it was clearly meant to chase someone away.
Zhong Xun's lips were flushed, and he didn't hide it any more. He took out the box that had been hidden behind him for a long time, and wanted to stuff it into his hand. His ankle was raised on the other knee, and he sat there as if he was too lazy to have bones.
"What?" Chu Tingdong didn't touch it.
"I wanted to give you a birthday present before, but who knew it would be like this before that day," Zhong Xun raised his head and said, "It's useless for me to keep it, you should like it? I still want to give it to you."
Chu Tingdong looked indifferent, just like when they first met, he took it and took a look.
It's a brand new pair of skates, an expensive brand.
Maybe some of his old ice fans know that this is the brand of the pair of skates he wore when he skating 4A in the International Figure Skating Grand Prix for the first time, and it is even difficult to buy in China.
"Just treat it as..." Zhong Xun didn't know whether to cry or laugh, he whispered, "Spiritual damage fee."
Chu Tingdong stared at the pair of skates with lowered eyes, and when he heard his words, he turned his head and couldn't restrain himself, he gave a low laugh, his eyes turned slightly red for a moment.
"It's very unlucky for you to meet me." Zhong Xun smiled at him, his face became stiff at the end of the smile, his teeth clenched, and he said, "But at least there is an ice rink here, and you and the people in the class are still there." Is it okay? Not all of them are bad things, I am the only one who is bad...so I hope you don’t feel like you hate Ning Cheng.”
Chu Tingdong put the skates on the bedside table and didn't say another word.
Zhong Xun left his bedroom. He originally wanted to go to the Internet cafe or the ice rink, but he stayed somewhere else anyway, but after wandering around the living room, he went back to his bedroom to lie down.
He didn't feel hungry either, and lay down all day.
When it was light again the next day, he heard footsteps in the living room and the sound of the wheels of the suitcase rolling, and he woke up suddenly.
Confused and dazed, he turned around and walked around in the bedroom countless times, but he didn't dare to open the door. He didn't rush out until the living room gradually became silent and the anti-theft door clicked.
He was alone again at home.
He heard voices still in the corridor, so he didn't have time to leave, but he didn't look too much. He turned his head and pushed open the door of Chu Tingdong's bedroom. No one lived there.
His eyelids began to turn red, and he looked down at the bedside table, and took away the skates on it.
Zhong Zhonglin's car rang downstairs, and Chu Tingdong just put the suitcase in the trunk, and before he got in the car, there was a sudden sound of hurried footsteps in the corridor behind him.
He turned his head, Zhong Xun didn't even have time to change his shoes, he still had plastic slippers on his feet, the coldness of early spring made his toes turn red.
Zhong Xun's tears started to flow out uncontrollably, he wanted to run forward, but before he ran a few steps, his legs stopped in place trembling, and then Chu Tingdong strode up to greet him, stretched out his arms and held him in his arms.
Zhong Xun moved his lips, said quietly that I really like you, and kept telling Chu Tingdong that I was wrong, repeatedly.
But he didn't make any sound, he couldn't cry, Chu Tingdong could only distinguish the shape of his mouth, and finally heard Zhong Xun's very low voice, whispering against his ear with some pleading: "Brother, don't forget me."
An exasperated urging came from behind, Chu Tingdong's brows were heavy, as if he didn't hear it at all, he wiped away the tears from Zhong Xun's eyes with his fingertips, held his wet cheeks, bowed his head and kissed him.
"Chu Tingdong!" Wu Yulan had already gotten into the car, was sitting in the passenger seat, and pushed the door hard.
There were tears in her eyes, her voice was almost out of tune, and she shouted his name angrily and disappointedly.
"Take care of yourself." Chu Tingdong parted his lips and teeth from him, stroked his cheek, gave him a deep look, and whispered.
Zhong Xun stared at the cold white exhaust that turned the corner of the alley until it dissipated, and then he went home holding on to the handrail of the stairs.
He was sitting on the bed in his own bedroom, with the endless spring sunshine falling on him, but he was shivering from the cold. He stretched out his hand to open the drawer, trying to get the SLR, but remembered that the SLR lens had been thrown away by him, before his eyes became sore, his eyes slightly Startled.
The SLR lens was wiped clean and placed in the drawer. Next to it was a fluffy little orangutan with shiny black eyes.
"We will rent a house together when we are admitted to university. You can live anywhere you like."
"I will celebrate your birthday every year from now on."
"It doesn't matter if you forget to make a wish, now make up one?"
If there is such a day, it doesn't belong to him anymore... Zhong Xun's pale cheeks were mottled with tears, he hugged the little orangutan, and finally broke down and choked up.