What should I do if I lose my memory after transmigrating into a book?

Chapter 114 The Inferior

This was the first time Jiang Ci had pulled Shen Xi into his arms so forcefully. His chin rested lightly on Shen Xi's shoulder, and as he spoke, his warm breath lingered on Shen Xi's porcelain-white neck.

"You still haven't answered me, are the lamb skewers delicious?"

Shen Xi instinctively flinched at the tickling sensation, shrinking back slightly. "It's delicious! Can't you see I've almost finished it all..."

She instinctively pointed behind her.

That was... an empty meadow.

Shen Xi gritted her teeth. "Enough!" she said, "Enough!"

The lamb skewers had long since disappeared with Jiang Po.

Let's not bring up her sad stories anymore.

Jiang Ci leaned on Shen Xi's shoulder, his voice muffled and slightly nasal, and very soft.

"I specially asked Jiang Po to bring that over from the Shen family's kitchen, and I also specifically instructed someone to make it for you."

The two consecutive "deliberate" remarks surprised Shen Xi, and her voice seemed to carry a hint of uncertainty.

"Is this your... apology gift to me?"

Shen Xi hadn't thought of this aspect, but Jiang Ci specifically brought up what he had done, as if... he was trying to take credit. Considering that she was angry before they parted tonight and had even scolded Jiang Ci for not following them.

Two words suddenly popped into Shen Xi's mind.

—To ingratiate oneself.

Yes, it's a kind of eager ingratiation.

It's like a child who has upset their beloved friend and is worried that the friend will never want to play with them again.

So I carefully gave my friend a gift, which was both an apology and a subtle way of trying to please him.

Jiang Ci is like this now; his thoughts are straightforward, and sometimes he can't even learn to be tactful.

He thought Shen Xi was really angry, and he was also afraid that she would really stop talking to him in the future.

then,

He gave Shen Xi... a whole roasted lamb.

Shen Xi pondered in his heart,

Am I just a foodie in his eyes?

When Jiang Ci heard Shen Xi say the words "apology ceremony," he was momentarily stunned. It was the first time he had used the word "apology," a word that was almost impossible for him to utter.

His eyelashes trembled slightly, and his voice was low, "If it's about apologizing, this whole roasted lamb isn't enough."

"I'm sending you a whole roasted lamb simply because I hope it will make you happier. You don't need to forgive me."

I can wait a little longer.

"Oh." Shen Xi simply replied with an "oh," then lowered her eyes and stopped struggling.

After a while, she became angrier the more she thought about it. Looking at Jiang Ci's shiny leather shoes, she stomped on them. Feeling that she hadn't vented her anger, she stomped on them again.

Poor Jiang Ci's expensive leather shoes had two footprints facing each other on the surface.

Hey, you know what, it's actually quite symmetrical.

Jiang Ci stood there unmoved, his back straight, letting Shen Xi angrily stomp on his left foot and then on his right.

Seeing Shen Xi stop.

He even humbly nuzzled Shen Xi's face, looking sincere, "You haven't had enough of stepping on me, have you? Want to kick me again?"

Shen Xi looked at Jiang Ci with a horrified expression, as if asking, "Are you alright?"

This guy seems to have a bit of a SM vibe.

She stopped Jiang Ci from rubbing against her, patted his shoulder, and pushed him away.

Shen Xi began to explain, her expression very serious.

"I'm not angry that you hid my true identity, but I'm angry at your attitude towards me."

"Jiang Ci, perhaps in your eyes I am a subordinate, and I can only do everything under your protection. In your eyes, I seem to be a weak person who cannot withstand the slightest wind or rain."

"So when you realized something was wrong today, your first instinct was to hide it from me, afraid to tell me that my biological parents might be from the Shen family. Your first reaction was to investigate, not to try to communicate with me."

Shen Xi stood there steadily, her eyes, filled with moonlight, meeting the man's gaze directly. She spoke, word by word...

"If I'm not mistaken, the first document you put down when I walked in the door today was probably the paternity test result you received."

Sometimes Shen Xi felt that being a little silly was actually a good thing. As soon as she entered the room, Jiang Ci casually took away the stack of white papers and covered them with something.

His movements seemed absolutely flawless.

If Shen Xi didn't understand him at all.

In the past, under normal circumstances, when Shen Xi went to Jiang Ci's study, Jiang Ci would openly place even the government bidding documents in front of her without ever trying to hide them.

He trusted Shen Xi very much, and Shen Xi was also very grateful for his trust, after all, trust between people is very fragile.

That day, when she stepped through the door and saw Jiang Ci putting down the papers, she didn't think much of it. She just assumed that he had stopped reading because she was back.

But then he covered it with another magazine.

Shen Xi knew that there was something she couldn't possibly know.

Jiang Ci has severe obsessive-compulsive disorder and a germaphobia. Things must be neatly categorized. Magazines and vases on the marble table all have their fixed places.

If he wants to read a magazine, it's usually the latest one that Li Zhu buys, not the magazines that are already on the table.

Shen Xi knew what he was hiding.

I didn't think much of it at the time, but now that I think about it, he was acting strangely back then.

Jiang Ci's eyes sparkled with starlight as he listened intently to Shen Xi's words, though his brow furrowed slightly at one point before quickly relaxing.

After Shen Xi finished speaking, he looked at Shen Xi's face, pondered for a moment, and then carefully began to speak.

“Xixi, I have to admit that I did make a mistake in this matter, but there is one thing you said that is wrong. I have never placed you in a subordinate position. No matter who sits in that position, even myself, it would never be you.”

"We are always equal; no one is in a superior position, and no one should look up to anyone else."

"You are you."

“I admit that I did something wrong in this matter, and I also admit that I overthought things, which is why you think my attitude towards things is problematic. I acknowledge all of that, and I can change it. But I want to defend myself a bit. My first thought when I hid it wasn't that I underestimated your ability to handle things. Rather, I was afraid that my intuition was wrong, which could cause you, an innocent person, to be accidentally harmed, and that would be unforgivable to me.”

"I've been running the company for so many years, which has made me a bit domineering and authoritarian, and I'm aware of that."

"However, in any case, I have never looked down on you, and there is no such thing as a subordinate perspective between us. We love each other as equals."

Jiang Ci gently hugged Shen Xi, watching the boundless moonlight spill onto the path, and said in a clear voice, "If feelings have to be ranked, then I will always submit to you."

Shen Xi couldn't describe how she felt at that moment. It was like being exposed to the scorching sun. She couldn't tell whether her ears were burning or her heart was burning.

Jiang Ci's promises were all true to her; he never broke his word to her.

Shen Xi listened calmly to Jiang Ci's words, his apology, his reflection, and his rebuttal.

Her doubts and questions were answered accordingly.

"Okay, I'll remember what you said today. If you ever lie to me again, then there's no future between us."

Shen Xi accepted his explanation readily, but never said a word about whether she forgave him or not.

"This concerns the future, so I'd better do my best."

Jiang Ci smiled calmly and stopped there, saying that some things need to be done, and some things need to be both done and said.

A cool breeze swept through the night.

Jiang Ci deftly took off his suit jacket and put it directly on Shen Xi. With his eyes lowered, he gracefully and slowly buttoned up the obsidian-colored buttons, displaying the demeanor of a seasoned cadre.

"I only realized today that sometimes I would rather they had abandoned me than loved me."

"Let's just leave it at that regarding the Shen family's reunion."

Shen Xi glanced indifferently at the moon in the sky. Tonight's moon looked just like the moon on the fifteenth day of the first lunar month, big and round.

At this moment, she wasn't thinking about her parents from the Shen family, but rather about the old man from the other world and the children in that courtyard.

Her gaze was unfocused, the moon's reflection shimmering in her eyes. She murmured,

"The moon is so round tonight, Grandma."

Jiang Ci paused, his hand still on the button. He slowly raised his head, blinked, and spoke softly, as if afraid of disturbing someone.

"Xixi, what did you say?"

The woman seemed not to hear, still staring blankly at the distant moon.

Suddenly, a tear the size of a bean slid down her cheek.

Shen Xi touched her face, looking at the wetness on her palm. She smiled and cried at the same time, "Why am I crying?"

Perhaps because of all this time, ever since she regained her memory, she had been suppressing her thoughts about her grandmother, the limping, inconvenient old woman, and those noisy children.

But tonight, her so-called biological parents appeared, instantly triggering all her memories, good and bad, of her childhood and her life.

Shen Xi's eyes were filled with tears, and her voice was choked with emotion. If even she had to start all over again...

What will happen to her grandmother?

What will happen to her family?

Shen Xi was reluctant to acknowledge the Shen family as relatives. Only by severing ties with the Shen family in her heart could she barely find peace of mind.

She wanted to find her way back; she wanted to see her grandmother and know if she was doing well.

Is she... still alive?

The dew is white tonight, and the moon is bright in my hometown.

The man's warm, large hands gently wiped away the woman's tears. He bent slightly, facing Shen Xi, his voice gentle and reassuring.

"Does our Xixi miss her grandma?"

Jiang Ci's words stirred a storm in Shen Xi's heart, and she broke down in tears like a child.

"Jiang Ci, I miss Grandma so much. I want to go home, I want to go home..."

The thought that she might never be able to go home again made Shen Xi feel as if her sky had turned gray and the world had lost all its luster.

In her deeply ingrained belief, that less prosperous town was her home, and she wanted to go home.

Although Jiang Ci's expression was calm, his tightly pressed lips betrayed his bitter emotions. He couldn't keep her; she wanted to go home.

Even more tragically, he couldn't bear to see her so desperate and sad.

He couldn't contain himself; if that day ever came, she could go back. Jiang Ci twitched his lips and smiled mockingly. He might really pretend to be tolerant and gentle, and personally see her off.

Take her home.

Jiang Ci placed his hands on Shen Xi's shoulders and gently guided her to face him.

Jiang Ci heard himself say, "Xi Xi, you will come home, you will come home."

He felt that the words he spoke were numbing.

The path was illuminated by the thousands of lamps lit by the Shen family, casting a dappled light.

Shen Xi lowered her head, refusing to look at the man in front of her. Finally, after a long time, her emotions began to calm down, but her voice was still a little hoarse.

"Let's not stay here, let's go back."

She had learned almost everything she wanted to know from Shen Lu, but today there was only one thing that disappointed Shen Xi.

That is, she didn't see Bai Linlin, a woman who might have unique skills.

Jiang Ci's heart had been tormented like oil being boiled on a raging fire. He rarely regretted anything in his life, but now he regretted it again and again. Why did he come to the Shen family banquet? Why didn't he learn about the Shen family's situation sooner?

But he forgot that he was not a god either.

……

The situation in the Shen family is not good either.

Not long after Shen Lu was taken away, Chu Li had difficulty breathing. Her pale face was visibly flushed, and the sickly redness on her face was alarming. Her intermittent body truncation had flared up again.

Shen Qi was the first to notice something was wrong; he could clearly feel his wife's hand stiffen.

He picked the person up horizontally and immediately headed up to the second floor.

Shen Qi walked in a less crowded area, and the guests hardly noticed that place.

After taking a tablet, under Shen Qi's tense gaze, Chu Li's stiff body and tightly clenched fists relaxed slightly.

Shen Qi, already as skilled as a masseur, slowly stroked Chu Li's thin back. "Relax, Li, don't think about anything else. Think about Xiao Xi. She's still at the Shen family manor. She's still here, right? Let's rest and then go see her, okay?"

Shen Qi was coaxing him like a child. He was burdened with deep-seated fears. In front of his Ah Li, he would never be a priority, but it didn't matter.

It's enough if there's someone she can think about.

Sometimes, things just don't go as planned.

Shen Qi had just finished speaking when Shen Xi was still at the Shen family manor.

The next second, as if deliberately slapping him in the face, Jiang Ci sent Shen Qi a text message.

"Uncle Shen, I'm sorry, my wife isn't feeling well. We'll have to go now."

Shen Qi had just finished feeding Chu Li warm water and was about to send a message to Jiang Ci when he saw this message and immediately flew into a rage, his eyes blazing with fury.

That damn person!!!

He calls her his wife and my wife, but in reality, the two of them can't even afford a marriage certificate!

Also, is Xiaoxi feeling unwell?

Was she frightened just now?

Shen Qi, with a gloomy face, and fearing that Chu Li would notice something was wrong, sent a text message with his back to Chu Li. The message contained a slight hint of bitterness.

Shen Qi was even angrier when he saw that the other party had read his message but hadn't replied!

As soon as Shen Ke entered the door, he saw his father looking like he was about to explode. Afraid of offending his father, Shen Ke took small, careful steps and walked along the wall, glancing at Shen Qi with a shifty look, like a thief, afraid that his father would see him.