The Book Soul Chronicles: Godslayer

Chapter 190 Breaking Free from the Cage

Ye Ling's personality became somewhat strange afterward, possibly due to the influence of her teacher when she was in junior high school. He believed that the most important task for students during their school years was to study.

He asked us to cut off all useless social interactions, saying that it wasn't easy to come out of the mountains, and we should try even harder to go out and see the outside world.

But what's so great about the outside world? Ye Ling was a child who came from outside into the mountains, and she strongly resisted going out.

The outside world is full of temptations that make people lose their minds, abandon morality, indulge in money and power, and lose themselves. What's the point then? Ye Ling could always feel the mournful cries of countless souls in the outside world before they decayed.

Gradually, Ye Ling, who had finally emerged from the shadows and was shining brightly, learned to obey. Slowly, she became like a puppet on strings, her soul falling into slumber, her body being manipulated at will. In her place, she became another Ye Ling, lonely, silent, indifferent, and cold-blooded.

But just when she finally became emotionless, learned to be alone, and got used to enjoying solitude, fate played a cruel joke on her.

She went to high school, to a place far away, on a winding mountain road that seemed to stretch endlessly. Every trip there and back was torture, and she hated it because she was always carsick.

Influenced by her former teacher, Ye Ling gradually became taciturn and her relationship with her family was lukewarm. Her family members just felt that their child had grown up and would occasionally test her in a joking tone, saying that she was an ingrate.

Ye Ling was initially upset, tried to explain and comfort her, but the more she explained, the more unreasonable she became, and her words became increasingly outrageous, eventually ending in an argument. Even when you didn't want to argue anymore, she still thought she was right.

In the end, she became numb and indifferent. They were the family that raised her, and there was nothing she could do but remain silent.

Fortunately, high school provides a brief respite. The atmosphere there is great, and apart from the heavy workload, everyone can make friends normally.

But Ye Ling hadn't socialized for too long, so she became self-conscious, sensitive, timid, and afraid. She couldn't speak properly and was afraid of bothering others.

Although Ye Ling made a lot of jokes at first, everyone was very patient and slowly taught her how to get along.

Ye Ling watched and learned slowly. Step by step, she broke free from the cage that had trapped her. This process was extremely difficult, requiring constant observation, learning, and self-adjustment.

But this habit continued, and she was still studying even when she went to university.

After three years of hard work, she has become more enthusiastic. What remains unchanged is her tenacity, independence, and inclusiveness, but at this point she has become somewhat obsessive and domineering.

She didn't understand a lot, but she still had a youthful, competitive spirit. She didn't understand where she was lacking.

But she understands that she hasn't completely broken free of the shackles that have imprisoned her in the past three years. She is still socially anxious, and even her classmates say that she speaks bluntly (lacking emotional intelligence), which is heartbreaking.

Ye Ling immediately decided to overcome these problems and began doing what she did best—observation.

Then comes imitation and learning, and finally making them my own. I hope that I can eventually become poised and elegant, instead of a silly girl who speaks and acts without thinking and offends people everywhere.

Ye Ling was somewhat unconvinced. Her gaze, like that of a hawk, was fixed on the every move of the people around her.

She paid particular attention to the rich young master in her class.

She was filled with curiosity about this rich young master, and secretly wondered: what was the difference between her, a child from a poor family, and a child from a rich family?

To unravel this mystery, she would often secretly observe the rich young master when no one was looking.

She carefully observed his clothes, his mannerisms, and his behavior, trying to find the answer in these details.

The problem was that she didn't recognize any of the clothing brands. It was her wealthy roommate who told her the brand and price of the other person's clothes, and she fell silent after hearing that.

Because the price of one of her clothes was comparable to her tuition fee for a year. She had only seen clothes worth tens of thousands of yuan online, but the other person was already wearing them.

She realized that her aesthetic sense and financial resources were completely different from the other person's. She also wanted to know what other differences there were. She continued to observe the other person.

However, this furtive behavior didn't last long. Several times, her gaze happened to meet that of the rich young master, and she was caught red-handed.

Her face flushed red instantly, like a ripe apple. She hurriedly lowered her head, pretending nothing had happened, as if it were just an accident.

Don't get me wrong, she doesn't like him. She's just feeling guilty. Why does she feel guilty? She doesn't know. Maybe she feels uncomfortable being used as a guinea pig!

She felt her toes gripping the ground, how embarrassing! It was perfectly normal, but for some reason, she felt like she had done something wrong and been caught red-handed, which made her feel guilty, but she just couldn't control it!

She couldn't help but feel annoyed, wondering why she was so unlucky to always be discovered by him.

Moreover, she felt very uncomfortable and extremely awkward every time she spoke to him. Her mind was blank, and what she said was often out of control, resulting in many offensive remarks. Fortunately, he did not take it to heart, but she was not as composed and at ease as he was when he communicated with others.

Nevertheless, she did not give up. She kept telling herself to be generous and composed, but no matter how she tried, that unnatural feeling always lingered in her mind.

She always felt that her performance was somewhat stiff, as if she were wearing a mask. Even if she looked okay on the surface, she knew deep down that it was all fake.

After a long period of observation, she finally realized that the gap between herself and the other person was not insignificant.

Perhaps to make up for her missing childhood, despite her relatively mature personality, she behaves like a child.

She was always indecisive and seemed indifferent to everything.

However, she has many problems. Not only is her health poor, but she is also a picky eater and suffers from motion sickness.

Ye Ling still vividly remembers that time with her four roommates.

Ye Ling walked through her life once again, as if reliving a long and wondrous journey.

We spent our holiday traveling around the school together. Ordering food went smoothly; each of us ordered one dish, ensuring there would be one she liked.

However, problems arose when they went to places a little further away.

Due to motion sickness and general discomfort, her condition worsened. No one dared to leave her alone, so they reluctantly headed home.

At that moment, she clearly saw the disappointment and loss in her roommates' eyes. She felt incredibly sad, embarrassed, and at a loss.

In the end, she chose to turn a blind eye and pretend she knew nothing.

At that moment, he wished he didn't have such keen observation skills, and wished he were really a clueless naive girl who didn't have to use his brain to think about so many things.

From that moment on, she knew that the mask of pretense would remain on her face for life, because she had become the very thing she used to hate most: hypocritical, selfish, and vain.

She felt that perhaps her life would just pass by like this, but every time such a momentous occasion came, there would be a turning point, and fate always seemed to be on her side.

Just as the fortune teller had told her, her life would be full of hardships, but the outcome would always be good. She thought the fortune teller was a fraudster, but in the end, everything proved to be true.